Summertime

Why is it that one day you can be the happiest person in the world and not even a day later, your whole world just feels empty? That's what I'm feeling like lately. Summertime started with my birthday and a recent move into my own place. Which was all very exciting for me, it's been something I really wanted to do. I'm living with a few good friends of mine and we all get along just like a family. Like a family, so much so, that I was named the son of the house. Partly because of behavior and partly because I was the only one without a girlfriend in the house yet. This aside, living in the new house has been pretty much I've expected it to be so far. I can't say that I'd ask for much more. During the early parts of our new move I had reconnected with a female friend from high school. We chatted a little and got along well, catching up on everything. I hadn't really thought much about this until we decided to hang out, and then it was a date. So we dated and hung out quite a bit, quite a bit so much that I was almost never home. Then once I finally thought it was going to work out, we made it official. As quickly as it started it was all over. That was it. This is where I am now and I don't really know how to express myself, so I'm writing this. For some reason this relationship ending so abruptly has really hit me hard. I didn't think so at first, but this morning I found myself thinking a lot about it. I'm not asking for advice and I don't know that I'm asking for her back. I don't really know what I want, but when you break up because of something that you had 0% to do with, it really hurts. Sorry this has to be such a sorry sounding and gloomy blog, I just needed to write about this. It's been a mixed bag of emotions that came with this break up and I fought the break up to the best of my ability, mainly because it was something I had no control over. I wanted to be there to help her and I wanted to help her get through things, but it sounded like I was just more of a burden to her and that we would get back together when it all ends (who knows if that's true). I was angry and tried to push my emotions of away and also sad. I feel bad for her in the sense of all the things she has to go through and but it also doesn't feel fair to me, to just throw everything away. Some might say I'm making too big a deal of this and "it's just a girl", but if that was the case, then there wouldn't be all these emotions right now. So, that's my blog today....I don't know that there is much more to say, but to just wait and see. Maybe it's best to just forget about it and move on, or maybe I should wait it out a little bit, but then again I might just be wasting my time to get hurt again. What a fucking world.

Break out the Hardware

      Cause it's GAME TIME!!! I'm a gamer at heart, so when I stray from what I enjoy it tends to eat away at me. Just recently I've returned from my couple of month or so hiatus away from video games. I had noticed that more and more on a daily basis I was checking IGN to see what new games were approaching, but I wasn't playing anything!! Why not? It just didn't seem like there was anything good to play and so much other stuff I was doing. Like work, and playing Magic, and work, and... more work. Time to pick up something new and start playing again! I've been so happy to start playing games and I started off with a game I wasn't sure that I would like. I actually bought this game for my sister's birthday, but I hadn't really had an interest in playing it.

Kirby's Epic Yarn
I haven't actually finished the game yet, because a game came out that I had been eagerly awaiting. However this game takes your typical Kirby game formula and mixes it up into a really fun game. No more Copying ability which is disappointing, but now you can become some other cool new transformations at specific points in levels. The game seems a bit short, which is why I decided to start it in the first place, no obligation to a long term game so I could play some of the new ones I was expecting. However that was not the case since this game has a rating system for each level and I'm determined to complete every little challenge and earn gold on each level (thats my inner OCD speaking out there, haha). Basically Kirby gets turned into yarn and the whole world around him and you have to save it, all the while satisfying other ridiculous challenges like decorating a house and finding weird objects inside of levels. This game is a lot of fun though and I look forward to completing it and seeing if there is any bonus content for getting 100%, as I know I will.

Probably my favorite boss so far has been this crazy squid thing, he's pretty cool. 

The game I absolutely love and have not been able to pull myself away from is definitely
de Blob 2
I fell in love with the first game in this series and the style of game play. It's a very innovative way of creating a platformer. The game takes platforming and gives you a giant blanc city canvas for each level to paint. The more you paint, the more the music picks up too. A nice jazzy beat accompany's the games levels, that starts off soft and picks up to a rocking pace once you've almost completed the level. There are also a lot of challenges to complete per level which give you a total ranking of C, B, A or S (which really looks like a Greek letter of some sort), you get the S if you did everything in the level. Overall each level takes  a couple of hours to complete. I think I've beaten 6 levels and logged at least 10 hours of play. Plus its got this great like anti-communist sort of theme to the story which makes it interesting.

The Ink't Corporation Uprising, a.k.a Communism

Of course then you have the Nintendo 3DS which is coming out in about 3 weeks and i cannot wait for!! There is so much cool stuff packed into that system, it's going to be awesome! Getting back on the subject of games however this weekend we have the brand new Pokemon Black & White games coming out. I attempted to play this on a emulator, but it just didn't feel right and I know a few friends of mine who have beaten it on the emulator. I'm still planning on getting this game for DS to play through it. It's going to be like starting a brand new pokemon game too, since every pokemon until after the Elite 4 is brand new. No old pokemon mixed in until after you've beaten the main story. I'd have to say thats probably what I'm most looking forward to, a fresh start on an old, but fantastic series.

Another game that any of you looking for a good one is Batman Arkham Asylum. An all around good game, great combat system and keeps you playing for hours. I had a lot of fun with that game and am really looking forward to the sequel coming in september, Arham City. Should be good.

So that's all I got for ya'll today. Until next time. Comment below and leave feedback if there is any ideas or suggestions you have for future blogs. Thanks and see ya later!

My First (Non-Football Related; Non-Introduction) Blog!!

Welcome one and all to the circus inside my brain. I have some interesting tidbits for you all today! I've finally decided to write a real blog (that isn't entirely related to football!!). I guess my reasoning behind finally wanting to do this is all the swirling ridiculous thoughts that are flowing through my brain. I feel like I just need to get some of it out.
What has become of my life so far? I'm 22, went to college and graduated and am working two jobs, and currently still living at home. Not an ideal life, but not one I wouldn't rather have. It's quite enjoyable on most occasions. I go out all the time and play MTG with some good buddies of mine, drive around random places, or just hang out. It's the good life I guess. But I don't just want this to be a bio about me. Lately I've been doing a lot of thinking. Thinking about life. Which is weird. I've developed an extraordinary love for a card game that I once said I would never touch. I find myself constantly looking up the next new cards and preparing new and interesting (or mostly hated) decks. Its surprisingly a lot more fun than I would have ever imagined. Which makes me think, where I am at now, I'm far more a nerd than I would've ever thought I'd become. I guess I never said to myself, "I'm going to be a nerd!" I don't know why I would have ever said that, but it's become a lifestyle that I would never change. It's far too interesting and I think we have more inside jokes than anyone could ever fathom.
I'm also considering moving out too, and I'm really excited about that. Moving out is one of those things I'm excited about now, but how will it actually be once it happens? Will it live up to the hype? I hope so.
Sometimes I wish I could just go back and relive my childhood though. I remember many occasion where I would go out and ride my bike without care or traverse the woods for the thrill of adventure. However being an adult isn't nearly as bad as I had imagined it as a kid. It's really not bad at all. You just can't lose the kid inside you or else then I feel like it would become boring. It's really interesting how my interests have changed too since growing up. I remember being a kid in the 90's and my favorite type of music was Backstreet Boys, now I can't stand them and only really listen to Rock/Alternative/Metal, anything along that genre. Not only that, but what I find interesting now is a lot different than when I was a kid, but sometimes a lot alike.
I guess....
I don't really know where I'm going with this. On the internet I suppose. To entertain. Hopefully. Maybe there doesn't have to be a point, just as with life. You just need to do what you do and enjoy it. If you go around hating everything and not doing what you like then you wont be that happy. Which wouldn't be very enjoyable. I feel like everyone should have their fair chance at happiness. But I also feel like happiness is what you make of it, you can't be unhappy and just not do anything about it. Otherwise you'll never be happy. Wow, I used 'happy' a lot in that last paragraph.
Alright, well this is just a stab in the dark as to what my blog will be.
To bid farewell I leave you with my football pick for the Superbowl, go Packers!